被人管太多的感受~

从小到大，我的生活就是给别人来安排。

不管什么事情，一定有人会来插手。

读那一件幼儿园，那一件小学，那一件中学
到拿什么科进大学都是你们来安排。

不是我不珍惜你们对我的好，
而是你们没问我有什么意见和没想到我的感受。

现在不只是我的学术你们要管。

是我的爱情你们也要管。

从第一个男友到现在的男友你们也有意见。

你们的语气不像在劝我，而是骂和侮辱我。

那个对我好那个对我不好难道我不懂吗？

我已经受够了！

我只是想问你们~

可以留给我一点点空间吗？

可以吗？？？

嗨~

没男人会死吗？

我们需要爱请但不一定要得到它。

认识到一个人。

他很傻~

那男的已经不要她了。

她很难过。

我明白。

但那男生讲那女的到好像她很cheap!

而那女的弄到自己像没价钱！

做朋友的也劝到口水也干掉了~

很不懂她~

那男都不是很帅~

厉害也不是很厉害~

有钱也不是很有钱~

觉得值得被你去抢吗？

现在你和他合好回~

让我们看不起你！

你丢了我们女生的脸！

如果他没跟你讲那几句话，我们还可以接受。

但并不是如何~

我们真的是。。。

无话可说!

Lousy Staff

I just got my new timetable. And guess what? Its freaking PACK! If it is not pack then it is too long of break. The long break as in SIX AND A HALF HOURS OF BREAK. What kind of adjustment is this you admin people make? All your job was sitting there and shaking your f*cking leg. TarC din't employ you to sit there and do nothing. Plus your service is SUPER DUPER sucks. We students pay u to serve and guide us.Though its not a big sum of money but hey I'm not the only student here, so the sum is stil LARGE. We don't expect you to reply in this kind of manner. And by the way, its not us (students) who wants this changes ok? Its you people who changed this darn system and affected us. And how dare you guys say youngsters nowadays are rude? Then where it all came from? Aren't you people suppose to make a good example? Seriously f*cking pissed with you people. Think before you dare to say!

Back In Action

After abandoned my blog for so long..

Now I'm BACK!

Din't blog coz there's ntg to blog about and lazy..

And now my class has 'restarted'..

After some 4 months of rotting at home..

Kekex..

It was nice to go back to class..

But sometimes feel a lil bit lazy..

The first thought of re-open class is MONEY..

Need to buy this book buy that book..

And all the books are so SUPER COSTLY..

Kononnya cannot photocopy notes anymore due to directive order..

KONONNYA.....

No matter what I still have to buy..

No buy cannot teach..

No teach cannot study..

Aikx..

All also MONEY MONEY MONEY~~~

15 Reasons Why People Ask

Why do people ask?

1. Curiosity
2. Care
3. They want answers
4. Coz they suspects you
5. It's a form of communication
6. To avoid misunderstandings
7. For learning process
8. To annoy you
9. To make suitable decisions
10. They are lazy to think
11. To prevent making mistakes
12. To make comparison
13. To confirm
14. To get some opinion/suggestion
15. To seek informations

Therefore, is it wrong for me to ask you some questions?

FFC Annual Dinner

Today i realized what was the taste of being an organizer to organize an annual dinner on my own. Frankly said, i did not organize any function during my school days before as gathering with friends are not counted. To find the suitable restaurant itself was quite a challenge. Not only have to do research in the internet, all the other works such as going almost half of the Penang island(excluding the hills), interviewing the managers regarding the foods provided and even through telephone calls for enquiries was not-so-easy and not-so-hard task at all. After confirmation on everything so i decided to book Sirarom Thai Restaurant. Though all(not totally all) went smoothly for me, there was sudden turn down in a number of people who does not want to go. That alone gave me a sudden shock as i booked the restaurant for 55 people and only 10 people manage to turn up. Therefore asked my club manager to solve this problem. Luckily after some persuasion, the number of people shot up to 27. Really thank God for that.

After all, on the 11-1-2010 at 7.30pm, all the members gather outside the restaurant. Everyone was enjoying their food. I felt glad that everything turns out smoothly and they appreciate my effort.

Wonder..If...

I ever wonder why there is such thing as alcohol. Isn't it good if there's no such thing?

Why wanna make yourself drunk? If its not for her wedding I dont think I'll attend this wedding dinner. Why do I wanna make myself sad? Just because of you? All this turn up is just because of alcohol. If you dint drink can die? No drink can suffer? Now is me who suffer. Get scold for nothing. A happy day becomes a damn day. WTF! Already know your bad habit then stop drinking la. Why wanna make yourself so embarrass? IF were to choose I dont wanna choose you as my ******! Each and every time there's a dinner the result will turn out like this. IF i were to choose I dont wanna go. Just because she invited me herself. I have to give her face. Sigh. How I wish
I could change my fate and destiny....

My Floorball Journey in FFC

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"SPARTANS~ WHAT IS~ YOUR PROFESSION?!

FLOORBALLERS!!!"

I guess this phrase I should think again and again whether should I continue to be a Frontliners. Or not..?

I started to play Floorball when i was 13. It was demonstrated at my formal secondary school. That time Peter and Steven was in charge. At first I wasn't taking Floorball seriously till I was 14 when I was recommended to join FFC. In that particular year my team was named Chili Padi at the first tournament I had joined, Youthwave. But, my school club couldn't maintain long as there were no teacher advisor to supervised the club. Hence, the CGL club's player was getting fewer and fewer and now it is extinct.

In year 2005, I joined in every tournament that was organised by the club. Until there was PMR round the corner, I stopped training. Then on the January of year 2006, I joined back the training session. The whole journey was up and down in FFC. Throughout the years there was fun, frustration and enjoyment.

In year 2008. The FFC almost closed down due to insufficient members. I was terribly sad. I told myself that that moment onwards Floorball will be part of my life. I called up the man-in-charge and told him that if he needs my help to manage the club I'm willing to help with all my might. And ya. On the month of June I was assigned to be part of the committee to manage the club finance till today.

Finally in the year 2009. This was the 6th year I'm in FFC. As you would think, that my skills are good enough. But ITS NOT! I had drag and disappointed my team members during the game in Sukpen. They were expecting the team would go for the semis. But with my stupidity and carelessness, I turned them down. This was the worst feeling when you made mistakes in Floorball. Especially in COMPETITIONS. One silly mistakes the whole team needs to bear the consequences. But me? I had repeated the same stupid mistakes in one match. I'm so so sorry guys but I know that my apology will not help to change anything now. Therefore I'm considering whether should I pull out myself and not to touch Floorball again which is NOT my profession at all.

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我的心裡沒有他

我的心裡只有你　沒有他

你要相信我的情意並不假

只有你才是我夢想　只有你才教我牽掛
我的心裡沒有他

我的心裡只有你　沒有他
你要相信我的情意並不假
我的眼睛為了你看　我的眉毛為了你畫
從來不是為了他

自從那日送走你　回了家　那一天
不是我把自己恨　自己罵　只怪我
當時沒有將你留下　對著你把心來挖
讓你看上一個明白　看我心裡可有他

This song is specially dedicated to you..

Wish you can see what i had dedicated for you..

最后一次

在我最後一次 閉上眼睛之前
我想對你說 我愛你
在你懷裡 捨不得放棄
心理有千萬語 還沒有說給你聽
我使勁全力 不想閉上眼睛
這次告別就不能 再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘記
你曾經答應我 你會好好活下去

先走了 去了好遠的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回憶 抹去卻並不容易
生死由天決定 不要太傷心

我永遠愛你...

English Version

Before I close my eyes for the last time
I wish to tell you I love you
In your embrace, don't wish to let go
In my heart, thousands of words I have yet to tell you
I used all my strength to keep my eyes from closing
After this farewell, there will be no more meetings, no more can I be by your side
But please don't forget
You promised me you will live on as well as you can

I'm leaving first, leaving for a faraway place
I won't be able to watch the sunrise with you anymore
I won't be able to wait for dawn
Erasing all the memories, is not an easy thing
But life & death are predestined, don't be too sad

The story behind this song is..

A 17-YEAR-OLD skin cancer patient composed a song for her boyfriend during her final days. According to the description in the video, the teenager was very close to her boyfriend and the couple had decided to get married upon graduating.

One day, she underwent a check-up in school and doctors found abnormality in her blood protein.

Further examinations confirmed that the girl had an uncommon skin cancer. She had only one year to live.

The teenager started writing a dairy. From here, she realised that her boyfriend was so important and had become part of her life.

She wanted to give him a present.

During her final days, she wrote him a song and sang for him for the last time.

“I can no longer see the sun rises but I am not afraid because I have you by my side. I love you.” This is the last thing she said to him.

After the teenager died, the boyfriend had been travelling around the world to take photos of the sunrise in memory of his loved one.

The video description also mentioned the boyfriend also died a year later.

He had slipped and fell while hiking a hill to snap the sunrise photos.

It is so touching..

Not My Cup of Tea But It Will Be In The Future

Today went for floorball training..All things were as usual as there's meeting den continue with training..But before that Jason change the format of training..Pay fees first..well, there's pro and cons..As the members all pay their fee, one of the member's dad paid for his son as well for himself..when i were counting the money to tally with the account book, his dad noticed that his son stil had outstanding debts that yet to be paid..so he paid up and thought back that he said his wife told him that his son had cleared all the debts..so i told him..that was paid for last time's debt..so in order to make things clear he called up his wife tru handphone..His wife's sounded very angry..So he ask me to explain to her..

When i answer the call, she keep talk and talk and talk till i got no chance to explain to her..so i stopped her.."Hey aunty aunty..we recorded each and every fees paid by the players..if u wan now onwards i'll open u a receipt once ur son pays..if thats alrite with u?" she terus shoot me.."I dun wan the receipt la..i just wan to noe now how much x owes the club!" when she was saying that, my mind was saying that "Hey..we dun wan ur money oso la..the money not goes to our pocket..im just doing my job as a head of finance..ok?" But i dint talk to her this way cause it mite destroy the clubs reputation..so i told her.."aunty, now x just owe till oct..only this amount had not been cleared" So she said.."okok..i'll ask his dad to pay today to clear all." "okok..no problem..sorry for the mistakes."

Therefore i realized that persuading, convincing and explaining to member's parent isn't my forte..Its quite a hard job for me to open my mouth to talk to parents about money issue..But I also realized that in the future i need to persuade, convince and explain to my subordinates as i'm looking forward to be a HR manager..

-close-

Bad Mood

I now feel like slapping people..

If noe wanna go out d do all ur duty first la..

Wanna go out den push all da duty to people..

Summo dare say me..

Do paling less wan is u d..

Kurang ajar betui..

If can i will give u 1 tight slap..

Tot u very clever ar?

Im stil elder den u ok?

Humanity

The more a person knows more of you the more careful you need to be..
This include your nearest person and your best frens..

Why?
This is how it goes..

A guy who i know for 2 yrs i guess..knows everything about me..almost everything..when he needs help he will come and beg me to do him a favor..When he dont needs me he treats me as a trash..He may joke and play a fool with me..but at the end slashes me with a sharp razor..all those words..too painful for a ordinary gurl to bear..all the things i had done..just treat is as i do a charity for you..all those begging you made, i will treat it as a needy needs a help..As there is a last word from me..never ever think that i will help you anymore..although you do your 'begging',my heart will treat you as hard as stone..without any mercy..

What 'he' say was rite..im a fool to be fooled by ppl over and over again..teaches me a lesson..never ever help ppl too much..never be too kind..ppl might step on your head..thats the lesson i've learnt in life and for life..

Life..

Life is short, break the rules, forgive sooner, love with true love, laugh without control and always keep smiling.

Maybe life is not the party that we were expecting, but in the mean time, we're here and we can still dance.....

Growing old is not for whimps.....Jock Smith & Bette Davis

That's What I'm Feeling Now

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

By LADY GAGA

FREE!!!

Ooooh yeah!!!
I'm free from the damn kick ass paper..
Made me restless..
Damn it..
Now da feeling is like free from jail..
Like bird flying..
Hahaha..
Sem break d..
She coming back oso..
Gonna hang out like nobody's business..
Yes!!
Break for 2weeks..
Woahooo!!!

妈的!!!

今天考account.知道它的format.但是没做过有两个column的题目。只怕不能过关。如果刚刚pass也好。But这课already考4次了。讲给人听也sia sui咯。还能考3次nia..真的 fcuk tis paper la..不能pass就是不能pass..怎么办好？压力死咯。让妈妈和婆婆担心吧了。算了吧。Haih..

Million Tears

I wanna know where you belong,
I wanna know why I sing this song.

I try to show how much I feel,
is that a dream or is it real?`

I never look where you belong,
until I'm gonna sing my song.

Is it a lie or is it true?
So many tears I've cried for you.

A Million tears that i have cried,
I wish you where right by my side.

I try to show how much I care,
believe in me I will be there.

I never knew where you belong,
whenever you just hear my song.

Is it a lie or is it true?
So many tears I've cried for you.

BY GROOVE COVERAGE

You Promise Me

You promised me the moon and the sun, the birds and the sky
You promised me a wonderful life they were under lights
You promised me all diamonds and pearls that I never kept
You promised me where the roses are gold but soon you forgot

You promised me I could be your queen and you be my king
You promised me a white wedding dress, where is your ring
You promised me your time of caress, your kisses of life
So try to show it wasn't in vain, cause i'm wasting my time

BY IN-GRID